Then I pray to you, O Lord.
I say, “You are my place of refuge.
You are all I really want in life. (Ps 142:5, NLT)
When I selected this verse for the jacket of a CD designed to bring comfort and encouragement to Christians going through a difficult time in life, I had no idea I would be in such a place myself, just two years later. I have had to ask myself if this true for me. Is Jesus really all I want in life? Without hesitation, I answer “yes.” You can take everything else from me, but give me Jesus.
As the old spiritual says:
When I come to die, oh, and when I come to die,
And when I come to die, give me Jesus.
Give me Jesus, give me Jesus.
You can have all this world, but give me Jesus.
The Apostle Paul put it another way.
Indeed, I count everything as loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have suffered the loss of all things and count them as rubbish, in order that I may gain Christ. (Php 3:8)
As I sit here now, not knowing whether my surgery will be successful, whether the pathologist will find invasive breast cancer, how sick the radiation treatments will make me, or whether hormone therapy will cause me to have endometrial cancer, all I can do is pray, “Lord, I’m in Your hands. Do with me according to Your will.”
Whatever happens, Father, please use me for Your glory. Give me the words to say. Help me do the things that need to be done. In Jesus’ name I pray. Amen.